Some women are attacked in a far more aggressive nature than I was, but still I feel like I’m standing still. I got away, I wasn’t hurt and had the same man approached me in a club and tried to kiss me, it’d be a case of ‘Wow, what a creep!’ and move on with the night. But this is slightly different.
I’m having trouble sleeping. I jump every time I see a taxi. My anxiety is through the roof. I feel like I am stuck like this.
“Never expect to outgrow lonliness. Never hope to find people who will understand you, someone to fill that space. If you expect to find people who will understand you, you will grow murderous with disappointment. The best you will ever do is to understand yourself, know what it is that you want, and not let the cattle stand in your way.”—White Oleander by Janet Fitch (via thechocolatebrigade)
Do you remember when you used to talk about drugs all the time? Ar you still into it?
I was 21 -22 and a moron .. sure, I remember. In 2011 I touched drugs 5 times. That was 5 too many.
I think if you’re in your 20’s and you want to use substances socially but rarely, it’s really no one’s business. But I think if you think it’s the best you’ll ever feel, I can tell you it’s not.
The last time I did MDMA, I was so bored and felt fucked for like 4 days. It’s totally not worth it. I was listening to a friend yesterday telling me her housemate snorted a red pill on NYE and it caused her have a burning sensation all through her head and vomit for almost 24 hours. I have another friend who frequently has dizzy drug spells because of their years of abuse.
I think that if you’re going to do it, you’re going to do it. Just because I’ve changed, doesn’t mean everyone else will but it starts to get boring.